Today, eight days into a new season, I had a breakthrough in my thought processes, in my belief system, and ultimately a deeper understanding of how I was built to operate.
Even now, as I write this, I am overcome by a sense that the Father is pleased that I am, on a higher plane than ever before, seeing myself in the Kingdom, closer and closer to the place that He intended for me to dwell.
Now, to let you into what I am referring to – actually.
I for several months now have been holding out on posting a blog about common sense, and how it relates to believers, and how I’ve thought everyone needs to rapidly increase in knowledge and understanding of the Kingdom so that we can do this culture thing, and get on with establishing the Kingdom thing in greater measure in the earth, etc., etc. I mean, after all, there is this ethereal goal of holiness, and a Heavenly standard or living out the Kingdom, right?
Unfortunately, I have related this to what I think God has revealed to everyone, or to that which they ought to be asking the Lord, and how to live out salvation, and even more indignantly suggesting everyone walk in the highest possible calling in the Kingdom – OR ELSE!?!
And God responds, “Or else, WHAT?!?” And this is where I get humbled – BIGTIME.
Last week, I had a session with a father of this house (Bethel), and as a result I now have a confidant and friend also. The intention was to have an encounter with Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit, which we did. The whole point of the encounter was to create a vantage point that would, in essence, give me a reading of what I am believing (whether true, or not) where I could work on repenting, worshiping, and praying into further revelation and a closer connection with God in a safe environment.
After realizing that my past is amazing, my upbringing much more productive spiritually than I give credit toward, and the development of my spiritual disciplines and relationship with the Lord much further along than I allow myself to think about, I found out that I’ve been bored for some time, on some level, and I haven’t been passionate according to the King’s desires, but merely out of my own comprehension to believe, and simply live a humble lifestyle. The latter is fine, however, I haven’t really been moved to be passionate about the King’s agenda for his Kingdom, and was reminded that I can’t continue this way – that I must begin to allow myself to feel the moving emotions of anger and extreme joy for the things that God has put in my heart.
Throughout the three hour ‘meeting’ I was made aware of an incredible gift of ‘revelation’ that I seem to have about the way I view things in general, the way I picture truth, and the way that I process the things of the Kingdom. I was trying to obtain some sense of gratification from the flattery, but I couldn’t find it in me to accept it when these things seem normal, mundane, almost routine to me in the way I capture the ideals of the Kingdom, and live them out according to my world-view.
Things get interesting. . .
Not until today, one week later, did I realize the brevity of what Holy Spirit set in motion, according to the desire in my heart to partake in a spiritual ‘cleansing’, or routine ‘check-up’, as some might call it. I was sharing with a dear friend some of the things that I encountered last week during this special meeting, and realized. . . that there are folks that feel I operate, according to them, in an ‘incredible’ gift of revelation, in the way I see things, say things, and articulate my heart and Heaven. I said, I wish I could feel like these things are profound, but most of the time these thoughts don’t hit me that way, “It’s just the way I see things! I just say it like I see it, and it seems normal.”
This is where it hit me – revelation is not mostly, and for me in fact is rarely a grandiose impartation or empowerment where I see Heaven opened. Revelation of truth is a result of a pursuit of a relationship with King Jesus, and to desire to know God’s ways and how the Holy Spirit administrates the goings on of the Kingdom and all it’s vision and purposes. According to a wise proverb, it is the glory of Kings to search out [revelation/God’s ways].
So evidently for me, revelation is somewhat common, and has become a sense of truths that often seem common. This is a huge breakthrough! For so long I’ve formulated walls and soap boxes of agenda that have everything to do with the Kingdom – this is good – but my expectation of others and the church is that they should know these things also, and we should be operating by a much higher standard corporately than we are! Although this could be considered true also, the delivery has been aimed at keeping the bar raised high with holiness in mind, but not about helping steward the transformation in me and others, and certainly not assisting or coaching those in my influence to be interested solely in intimacy with Jesus, as this is the only way to know and understand the ways of the Kingdom.
In other words, I have continually engineered the translations of my revelation with a manipulative tone to provoke people to a higher level of something Kingdom based on my expectation of their works (which I previously would argue are what prove faith) with only the end result in mind. I haven’t really intentionally sought to communicate to my brothers and sisters how valuable revelation is, and how it relates to the process of growing in intimacy with God, the process of growing in intimacy and vulnerability with other believers, and operating in a growing sense of value for process itself. Such a value for the process can in turn increase our ability to see Jesus as He really is all day, every day, and what He desires the most, a renewed mind, a continual transformation of the heart by continually believing with deeper conviction that He is God. He has indeed provided us a means to intimacy with God in a fashion that is absolutely identical to the way that He Himself communes with God and the Holy Spirit (so that we might be ‘seated with Christ at the right hand of the Father.’)
I want to offer a public confession that I believe that I have been operating in a lesser truth, valuing the future over the now, and I want to ask your forgiveness, as a brother who has been called by grace to greater things. I thank the Lord that He has offered me as much favor as is necessary to allow me to go as deep into His heart as I am willing to go.
I want to pray a blessing over you, that you would continue to receive the mind of Christ, that you would have as much grace as you need to be transformed by the renewing of your mind, and that you will indeed continue as you have been, approaching God’s throne with confidence. I also pray that there would be a breakthrough in your heart to receive more of the revelation of God’s love, His truths and His promises given to you through the Word, in prayer, and in various other ways. There is simply no greater joy but to know Jesus, and understand that there is no one closer than the one who will lay down their life for friends.
Please continue to grow in your ability to place a very high value on the process of transformation.
Blessings to you in the name of Jesus, and I’m hoping you have a wonderful Christmas!
